Mama

I cannot ask you not to worry
I cannot ask you not to care
I cannot ask you to let it pass
I can never ask you to stop being mama.

In a journey of too many choices
In the midst of life I am lost
In your warmth I find my hope
In your love I find my guidance.

We are at once what we are
We are at once your fear and your joy
We cannot feel what you feel
But beneath our whims is our love for you.

This is me now
I am your worry
I am your pain
I am also the contentious one
And I am no longer the girl I used to be
But love me still
But care me still
There’s not a day I can make through
Without your love
Without your care
Without your worry
To be my guiding light
To be my limitation redline
To always and forever be my mama.

We are not without our father
You are not without your husband
The past brought us today
The present is bringing us uncertainties
When all fails or falters
When our hearts are breaking
When our souls are weakening
With his love we fight this fight
With each other we live on his love.

To my dearest mama
With all my might I try to write
Words of thousands apology
Words of millions appreciation
Words to let you what this heart is singing
But it can never be
But it can never happened
Everything you are
Everything you give
Everything you swallow
Everything and everything
I can never be able to count
I can never be able to repay.

To our darling mama
For all the yesterdays that has passed
For all the tomorrows that are yet to come
For today and forever
For you and for ayah
For the love that light and guide us
Before the Almighty
Before the Most Merciful
We bow down and prostrate before Him
Thank you Allah
Thank you for your Love and Mercy
Thank you for mama and ayah.

Happy Mother’s Day Mama.

11th May 2008