Ayah

Sometimes the sun shines to bright
Sometimes the rain left me wanting
Without you it’s never right.

When they were shouting I wanted nothing
When she was crying I wanted everything
Without you the pain keeps on growing.

I saw a man pushing the grocery cart
With his little girl holding on to his shirt
I thought she was me, I thought he was you.

I was nineteen when you left
How can I see the future without you?
I wish I’m where you are now.

I try to be everything I need to be
You gave me all the love I needed
But I need you still, but we need you still.

You wanted me forever in your arms
I wanted you to set my wings free
You left and I want what you’ve always wanted.

You left and I keep on moving
But without your warmth I’m shivering
I tried to grow, I tried to be accepting.

It’s been years of trying, of crying
Time doesn’t make it any better
I can only learn to live with it.

If you see me cry don’t you cry
I’m your girl and I’ll never stop being one
But watch over me smile for me, don’t ever stop.